OK, here’s what’s going on right now: I resigned from my full-time day job because it just was not working out. I struggled with the decision for a full three months. Finally, I had to admit the the toll it was taking me. Walking away from the security of a regular paycheck is extremely hard for me, but it became clear that I would never thrive in the situation I was in so I let it go.
After I resigned, for two days, I felt very relieved. I thought about how I’ve neglected the cookbook proposal I have halfway done and all the freelance work I’ve done and want to do. I felt optimistic and ready for the future.
And then Dan was called into the HR office where he works and informed that his full-time job would be cut to part-time hours, effective immediately. Gulp.
I am determined to maintain a positive attitude about this, but it can be hard. I have spent–fruitlessly–hours ruminating on the unfairness of it all, particularly when I think about what a hard working, loyal employee my husband is. I have wondered aloud how great it must be to work as a freelancer in a country with universal health care coverage or where student loan debt wouldn’t be the burden that mine is (and will continue to be for another two decades).
So if you sense a certain renewed enthusiasm for budget ingredients or cheap restaurant eats, this is why. I hope to stay focused on my projects and all the things I will now have more time to achieve. I’m trying to remember all the things Dan and I have going for us that so many other couples do not–affordable housing in a place we love living, freedom from credit card debt, no offspring to feed and clothe, our shared love of life’s cheap, small pleasures like home-cooked meals, watching movies on our sofa, library books, and walking around the city together.
Another plus in all of this is that I plan to be a better blogger. I miss posting regularly and sharing my meals and musings with you. More regular dispatches from whatever this new lifestyle is going to be are coming your way. Words of encouragement welcome in the comments.